Last (Wo)Man Standing

My mom left today so now it's just me. These last two weeks really flew by. I can't believe it's already September. I had mixed emotions about my mom leaving. Part of me was ready to be alone because it had been so long since I had "lived" with my mom. She was driving me bananas. Now I know why I moved out over 10 years ago and will never move back home. The other part of me knew I would miss her because it's so nice to have someone to come home to or someone to talk to or watch TV with. And I would be lying if I didn't say someone to cook for me :) Her and I had gotten into this routine over the week and it had felt nice. I promised myself I wouldn't cry when she left and I was okay until she started crying. For those of you who know my mom, she never cries. So , seeing her breakdown like that made me awful so I started to cry too. The poor driver who was taking my mom to the airport was quite uncomfortable. He was just hired to drive to the airport, not take care of two sobbing grown women on the corner of the street. I know she was crying because she would miss me and is worried about me being here alone. I kept telling her to stay strong and I would be fine. I'm more worried about her being alone then me. I have never been more than 2 hours away from my mom. We talk to each other everyday, I see her at least 2 or 3 times a month. That is what she used to and has relied on. That is all going to change now. I really want her to make a life for herself and be more social. I'm praying she doesn't get depressed and retract from the world. She's not the best at reaching out to people but I kept reminding her while she was with me in London she should call people and make plans when she gets back. I realize I can't force her to do this, it's utlimately up to her.

I thought I would feel weird being alone in my place but I don't, rather I feel a sense of calm. I have a feeling that will all change by tomorrow. It hasn't hit me that my mom's left. So friends, be prepared for some phone calls! I'm not riddled with plans for the weekend which is unfortutunate, but I am going to try and do my best to stay busy. Although, I do have plans to meet up with a friend of a friend for brunch tomorrow which I've very much looking foward to. My goal is to establish a friend circle as fast as possible. That's what I need to be happy so I gotta get to it!